Tula#15

"Stays"
The more you push things through, the more it stay
My feelings for you that I feel everyday
And it hurts so much if you pretend and would say
That we can be friends and can always play
But the truth is I will never gonna be okay
Coz my feelings for you will always stay.

But someday I know that God will guide me
And he will free me from all the anxiety
And suffering that keeps me feel empty
And fill that with all the love he has from me.

Realizations

Dear Ms. Procrastinator,

I just want to share my late realizations:and It goes like this.....

I've realize something!
The truth is I let my self lost because of HER
I change everything about me because I want HER to be happy. And then I lost my self

All this time I didn't notice that the one who made me happy is HIM,
the one who bring back the real me is HIM,
the one who says that Im worth it and special,
the one who says I'm the best,
the one who says that I can do it,
the one who supports me in every step of the way, the one who keeps reminding me whats right and wrong,
the one who reminds me WHO I REALLY AM.. And thats HIM!
And I confused my feelings and treat him that he ruined me, and let my self blame him for not doing his best and that is my biggest mistake. I DIDN'T LOSE MY SELF BECAUSE OF HIM!!! 😭 but Still HE DIDN'T COMPLETES ME EITHER!

From
Ms. Overthinker

Tula#20

"Liar"
I convinced my self not to love you
But I ended up thinking of you
Everyday I've prayed to have you
Even just for a while I can hug you
And tell you that I'm really sorry because I loved you.

But I've realize that its not a sin to love you
I'm happy that I've tell you
All the things you need to know
And hoping to finally accept me coz you know
I hate the fact that you know
All the things you shouldn't know

Tula#19

"Stars"
I want to rewrite the stars,
And Im thinking for an hours,
That maybe this dream can be ours.

Tula#18

"Confuse"
Choosing you was right,
But why is my heart so tight,
That I can't even breath at slight,
I cry everynight, thinking that there's no light,

Tula#17

"Cry Hard, Laugh Hard"
Pretending to be happy was tough,
I think anytime my heart will possibly puff,
Because this situation is so rough,
All I need to do is laugh.

Tula#16

"Hide and Seek"
Hide and seek was a game I loved to play,
But I realized I hate it today,
I hate it but I play it everyday,
I know that game was just for gay,
Who can't even say,
The truth they want to portray.

Tula#14

"Anything but not Everything"
What am I thinking, choosing everything?
It is confusing to choose everything
Because that everything is really sophocating
Remember, You can choose anything but not everything.

Tula#13

"Lost my self"

Didn't notice that I slowly lose my self
Because of giving someone all my hopes and what if,
What if I'll stay with you?
What if I'll never stop loving you?
What if I'll keep lying?
What if I'll never stop hiding?
And always keep running
Until I get tired and ask my self Why am I complaining?
Is this really the right thing?
Or it was nothing.
But in the end I just let my self hanging
Hanging from everything thats happening in my life.

Story

This Photo Explains different kinds of Feelings💕

Introduction:
1. The scenario at the left side is a man carrying the moon,  It symbolizes work for man. The man sacrifice not to see the woman he loves to earn money and I put green colors to represents fortune, and the big full moon indicates pressure, loneliness, and problem that he needs to carry along the way to prove that he can do everything for the one he love.

2. At the right side the scenario there is the girl sitting at the cresent moon impatiently waiting for the man to arrive. She is impatient because of the gesture she made by lifting her hands and hoping that the man will arrive soon. She is impatient because she can't do anything without the man not because she love him so much but because she can't even go down and go on to her life because the man put her into that position. And cresent moon means that the woman is not complete and feels that somethings missing. Violet means sorrow, the woman feels sad,  guilty and desperate because of her situation.

3. At the center there's a lightning that seperates the world of the 2 main characters. That lighting means death or misery.  But there's a saying that love conquers everthing.

4. This one is the twist in the story behind this photo, look carefully under the big tree, you can see a man facing the girl and praying for her everyday.This man truely love her knowing that his life is also in danger because of the lightning that can strike him to death but he doesn't care at all. The craziest part is the woman above fell inlove to that man under the tree because he completes her everyday just by listening to all his stories,songs,poems and thats the main reason why the girl wants to go down but because of the commitment she gave to that working man she can't choose the one who makes her really happy.

PS:
All of us have feelings and the BEST feeling is to be with someone you love and loves so back.HOW COULD LOVE BE A BAD CHOICE?