Linggo, Nobyembre 11, 2018

Tula#21

Isa, dalawa,tatlo,
Ayoko nang mag laro,
Kasi hindi nato biro,
Mga nararamdaman ng aking puso.

Isa, isang beses mo palang na hawakan ang aking mga kamay, naka ramdam naku nang kakaibang taglay na nag pa bago sa aking buhay.

Dalawa, Dalawang beses mo lamang akong niyakap at dun ko na pag tanto na ang hirap na pala, ang hirap ng kumawala sa mga yakap mong kay sarap na palagi kong hinahanap.

Tatlo, tatlong beses kong sinubukang sabihin lahat ng aking mga lihim, pero palaging nabibitin at pinili nalang kinikimkim kasi nga natatakot na baka ako'y  iyong sampalin.

Apat, lima, anim..
Lahat ng mga lihim,
Na aking kinikimkim,
Ay akin nang sasabihin,
Para hindi na maging sakim.

Apat,  At eto yung hindi dapat,  yung hinahayaan ko na mag pakatanga, para ika'y tumawa, okay lang pagtawanan mo ko basta't ika'y mapasaya.

Lima, mahigit limang buwan ko tong pinag isipan, kasi ako na palay nahihirapan, una palang alam ko naman yung ating kapalaran,  na kahit kailan ay d kita kayang hagkan, at halikan. .

Anim, Anim na bote ng beer ang ininom ko at sa anim na bote na yun lumabas lahat ng aking mga lihim,  lihim na ilang taon ko nang tinago pero kahit anong lalim pa ang mga sinasabi, patuloy kang nakinig at ako'y inintindi.

Pito, walo, siyam..
Dito tayo mag kakaalaman,
Kung anu ba talaga ang nilalaman,
Nang iyong nararamdaman,
Sana ako'y maging handa sa sagot mo na ngayon ko lang malalaman.

Pito, Huminto ang oras at namatay ang pitong pandama ko at biglang gumuho ang aking puso ng sabihin mong "mali ang lahat ng sa tingin mong totoo, wala akong nararamdaman na kahit ano, pero salamat kahit papaano minahal mo ako ng totoo."
Oo napakalaki kong bobo at sa mga oras na yun ay gusto ko nalang mag laho.

Walo, at wala na, tama na, ayoko na, Masarap mag mahal pero masakit pag hindi ito katangap tangap, kaya tatangapin na hangang pangarap nala lang talaga kita. At sa huli alam kong ito ay aking matatangap.

Siyam, siyamatamis mong mga ngiti ako'y ulit ay na kikiliti, at ilang ulit na binatukan ang sarili at muling na paisip na ito ay mali-maling mali, kailangan ko nang kalimutan ang mga sandali na ako'y iyong nabighani at napapangiti.

At heto na ang pang huli...
Sampu, Pero sana eto na yung huli, huli na umasa pang muli na ikaw magiging akin sa huli.
At tanging hinihiling ko lang na sa susunod na ako'y mahulog muli, sana sasaluhin na nang taong aking minimithi ang puso kong humihingi ng pag mamahal at karamay hanggang sa huli.


Lunes, Agosto 20, 2018

Tula#15

"Stays"
The more you push things through, the more it stay
My feelings for you that I feel everyday
And it hurts so much if you pretend and would say
That we can be friends and can always play
But the truth is I will never gonna be okay
Coz my feelings for you will always stay.

But someday I know that God will guide me
And he will free me from all the anxiety
And suffering that keeps me feel empty
And fill that with all the love he has from me.

Realizations

Dear Ms. Procrastinator,

I just want to share my late realizations:and It goes like this.....

I've realize something!
The truth is I let my self lost because of HER
I change everything about me because I want HER to be happy. And then I lost my self

All this time I didn't notice that the one who made me happy is HIM,
the one who bring back the real me is HIM,
the one who says that Im worth it and special,
the one who says I'm the best,
the one who says that I can do it,
the one who supports me in every step of the way, the one who keeps reminding me whats right and wrong,
the one who reminds me WHO I REALLY AM.. And thats HIM!
And I confused my feelings and treat him that he ruined me, and let my self blame him for not doing his best and that is my biggest mistake. I DIDN'T LOSE MY SELF BECAUSE OF HIM!!! 😭 but Still HE DIDN'T COMPLETES ME EITHER!

From
Ms. Overthinker


Tula#20

"Liar"
I convinced my self not to love you
But I ended up thinking of you
Everyday I've prayed to have you
Even just for a while I can hug you
And tell you that I'm really sorry because I loved you.

But I've realize that its not a sin to love you
I'm happy that I've tell you
All the things you need to know
And hoping to finally accept me coz you know
I hate the fact that you know
All the things you shouldn't know


Tula#19

"Stars"
I want to rewrite the stars,
And Im thinking for an hours,
That maybe this dream can be ours.


Tula#18

"Confuse"
Choosing you was right,
But why is my heart so tight,
That I can't even breath at slight,
I cry everynight, thinking that there's no light,


Tula#17





"Cry Hard, Laugh Hard"
Pretending to be happy was tough,
I think anytime my heart will possibly puff,
Because this situation is so rough,
All I need to do is laugh.