Tula#21

Isa, dalawa,tatlo,
Ayoko nang mag laro,
Kasi hindi nato biro,
Mga nararamdaman ng aking puso.

Isa, isang beses mo palang na hawakan ang aking mga kamay, naka ramdam naku nang kakaibang taglay na nag pa bago sa aking buhay.

Dalawa, Dalawang beses mo lamang akong niyakap at dun ko na pag tanto na ang hirap na pala, ang hirap ng kumawala sa mga yakap mong kay sarap na palagi kong hinahanap.

Tatlo, tatlong beses kong sinubukang sabihin lahat ng aking mga lihim, pero palaging nabibitin at pinili nalang kinikimkim kasi nga natatakot na baka ako'y  iyong sampalin.

Apat, lima, anim..
Lahat ng mga lihim,
Na aking kinikimkim,
Ay akin nang sasabihin,
Para hindi na maging sakim.

Apat,  At eto yung hindi dapat,  yung hinahayaan ko na mag pakatanga, para ika'y tumawa, okay lang pagtawanan mo ko basta't ika'y mapasaya.

Lima, mahigit limang buwan ko tong pinag isipan, kasi ako na palay nahihirapan, una palang alam ko naman yung ating kapalaran,  na kahit kailan ay d kita kayang hagkan, at halikan. .

Anim, Anim na bote ng beer ang ininom ko at sa anim na bote na yun lumabas lahat ng aking mga lihim,  lihim na ilang taon ko nang tinago pero kahit anong lalim pa ang mga sinasabi, patuloy kang nakinig at ako'y inintindi.

Pito, walo, siyam..
Dito tayo mag kakaalaman,
Kung anu ba talaga ang nilalaman,
Nang iyong nararamdaman,
Sana ako'y maging handa sa sagot mo na ngayon ko lang malalaman.

Pito, Huminto ang oras at namatay ang pitong pandama ko at biglang gumuho ang aking puso ng sabihin mong "mali ang lahat ng sa tingin mong totoo, wala akong nararamdaman na kahit ano, pero salamat kahit papaano minahal mo ako ng totoo."
Oo napakalaki kong bobo at sa mga oras na yun ay gusto ko nalang mag laho.

Walo, at wala na, tama na, ayoko na, Masarap mag mahal pero masakit pag hindi ito katangap tangap, kaya tatangapin na hangang pangarap nala lang talaga kita. At sa huli alam kong ito ay aking matatangap.

Siyam, siyamatamis mong mga ngiti ako'y ulit ay na kikiliti, at ilang ulit na binatukan ang sarili at muling na paisip na ito ay mali-maling mali, kailangan ko nang kalimutan ang mga sandali na ako'y iyong nabighani at napapangiti.

At heto na ang pang huli...
Sampu, Pero sana eto na yung huli, huli na umasa pang muli na ikaw magiging akin sa huli.
At tanging hinihiling ko lang na sa susunod na ako'y mahulog muli, sana sasaluhin na nang taong aking minimithi ang puso kong humihingi ng pag mamahal at karamay hanggang sa huli.

Tula#15

"Stays"
The more you push things through, the more it stay
My feelings for you that I feel everyday
And it hurts so much if you pretend and would say
That we can be friends and can always play
But the truth is I will never gonna be okay
Coz my feelings for you will always stay.

But someday I know that God will guide me
And he will free me from all the anxiety
And suffering that keeps me feel empty
And fill that with all the love he has from me.

Realizations

Dear Ms. Procrastinator,

I just want to share my late realizations:and It goes like this.....

I've realize something!
The truth is I let my self lost because of HER
I change everything about me because I want HER to be happy. And then I lost my self

All this time I didn't notice that the one who made me happy is HIM,
the one who bring back the real me is HIM,
the one who says that Im worth it and special,
the one who says I'm the best,
the one who says that I can do it,
the one who supports me in every step of the way, the one who keeps reminding me whats right and wrong,
the one who reminds me WHO I REALLY AM.. And thats HIM!
And I confused my feelings and treat him that he ruined me, and let my self blame him for not doing his best and that is my biggest mistake. I DIDN'T LOSE MY SELF BECAUSE OF HIM!!! 😭 but Still HE DIDN'T COMPLETES ME EITHER!

From
Ms. Overthinker

Tula#20

"Liar"
I convinced my self not to love you
But I ended up thinking of you
Everyday I've prayed to have you
Even just for a while I can hug you
And tell you that I'm really sorry because I loved you.

But I've realize that its not a sin to love you
I'm happy that I've tell you
All the things you need to know
And hoping to finally accept me coz you know
I hate the fact that you know
All the things you shouldn't know

Tula#19

"Stars"
I want to rewrite the stars,
And Im thinking for an hours,
That maybe this dream can be ours.

Tula#18

"Confuse"
Choosing you was right,
But why is my heart so tight,
That I can't even breath at slight,
I cry everynight, thinking that there's no light,

Tula#17

"Cry Hard, Laugh Hard"
Pretending to be happy was tough,
I think anytime my heart will possibly puff,
Because this situation is so rough,
All I need to do is laugh.

Tula#16

"Hide and Seek"
Hide and seek was a game I loved to play,
But I realized I hate it today,
I hate it but I play it everyday,
I know that game was just for gay,
Who can't even say,
The truth they want to portray.

Tula#14

"Anything but not Everything"
What am I thinking, choosing everything?
It is confusing to choose everything
Because that everything is really sophocating
Remember, You can choose anything but not everything.

Tula#13

"Lost my self"

Didn't notice that I slowly lose my self
Because of giving someone all my hopes and what if,
What if I'll stay with you?
What if I'll never stop loving you?
What if I'll keep lying?
What if I'll never stop hiding?
And always keep running
Until I get tired and ask my self Why am I complaining?
Is this really the right thing?
Or it was nothing.
But in the end I just let my self hanging
Hanging from everything thats happening in my life.

Story

This Photo Explains different kinds of Feelings💕

Introduction:
1. The scenario at the left side is a man carrying the moon,  It symbolizes work for man. The man sacrifice not to see the woman he loves to earn money and I put green colors to represents fortune, and the big full moon indicates pressure, loneliness, and problem that he needs to carry along the way to prove that he can do everything for the one he love.

2. At the right side the scenario there is the girl sitting at the cresent moon impatiently waiting for the man to arrive. She is impatient because of the gesture she made by lifting her hands and hoping that the man will arrive soon. She is impatient because she can't do anything without the man not because she love him so much but because she can't even go down and go on to her life because the man put her into that position. And cresent moon means that the woman is not complete and feels that somethings missing. Violet means sorrow, the woman feels sad,  guilty and desperate because of her situation.

3. At the center there's a lightning that seperates the world of the 2 main characters. That lighting means death or misery.  But there's a saying that love conquers everthing.

4. This one is the twist in the story behind this photo, look carefully under the big tree, you can see a man facing the girl and praying for her everyday.This man truely love her knowing that his life is also in danger because of the lightning that can strike him to death but he doesn't care at all. The craziest part is the woman above fell inlove to that man under the tree because he completes her everyday just by listening to all his stories,songs,poems and thats the main reason why the girl wants to go down but because of the commitment she gave to that working man she can't choose the one who makes her really happy.

PS:
All of us have feelings and the BEST feeling is to be with someone you love and loves so back.HOW COULD LOVE BE A BAD CHOICE?

Tula#12

Everything is about timing,
So don't keep hiding,
Coz maybe she's just standing,
Behind you and waiting,
Thinking that you'll stop running,
And face her smiling,
Just let the words from your heart saying,
I love you and you are my Everything.

Tula#11

Maibabalik pa kaya ang dati?
Yung masaya lang tayo parati,
Away, bati, away, bati
Hanggang sa lumamig na at puro nalang puti,
Puti kasi wala akong maisip na tamang dahilan kung bakit di kana ngumingiti,
Di ko alam kasi wala kanamang sinasabi kahit konti.

Di ko lubos ma isip bat tayo umabot sa ganito,
Siguro ika'y na pagod na o dikaya'y ako,
Ang hirap naman kasing mang hula pag dating sayo,
Kasi nga baka tawagin mo naman akong feelingera/feelingero.

Pinilit kong wag pansinin, pero andun padin,
Mga malalamig mong sagot at wala nang diin,
Palagi kitang tinatanong pero yung sagot mo lang ay "wala busy lang ako kaya wag mo nang isipin"
Pano ko di iisipin kung ikaw ay mahalaga sa akin,
Ayoko lang isip na baka balng araw bigla ka nalang mawala sakin.

Kaya bes magsabi ka naman kung may problema ka,
Hindi yung gagawin mo kong manghuhula,
Kasi ang hirap manghula lalo na sa situation na ang gulo-gulo na,
Kaya sana pagkatiwalaan mo naman ako, at sabihin ang lahat ng nararamdaman mo,
Kasi pilit kong tatanggapin kung anu man ang sabihin mo,
Kasi nga mag kaibigan naman tayo,.

Aalis kana?, Oo nga pala aalis kana,
Pero alam ko naman babalik kapa.

Sa pag alis mo gusto kong humingi ng sorry sa lahat ng mga kasalan ko,
Kung meron kamang di gusto sa pinapakita ko, o kaya sa mga sinasabi ko,  o kaya sa mga ginagawa ko.
Patawad kasi ganito ako..
Pero kahit ganito ako gusto kong malaman mo na ginagawa ko to kasi importante ka sakin at di ko alam kung anung ginawa mo at ganito ako ka lalim.